It's been two and a half weeks since my last post. In this time I've pondered my blogging boundaries and what should or shouldn't be posted online. I've come to the conclusion that, since my blog is my journal, and since I am a relatively open person anyway, most things that happen in my life, good or bad, will be posted. It's with a heavy heart that I share this bit of news with you, my readers. About a month ago we discovered I was pregnant, then two weeks later it was confirmed that I lost the baby. I was only six weeks along. While I didn't look pregnant and my little baby was only the size of a lentil, the loss has been one of the most difficult events I've had to handle. Even with the knowledge that these things happen fairly regularly, I've been sad. It's not to say that I only wear black and freely cry all the time, but it's been the little things: pregnant women with their round bellies, commercials for pregnancy tests and products for newborns. Fortunately, Emron keeps me busy and leaves me with little time to feel sorry for myself. Additionally, I have confidence that I will get to meet my little lentil one day and until then he or she will be well cared for by our Heavenly Father. So, that's why it's been awhile since my last post...
Anyway, despite this trial, we've actually been doing pretty well. Emron is finally walking more than crawling. He still does a bit of a Frankenstein walk, but he's moving from room to room, and he gets right back up after he falls without any tears.
The bank has accepted one of our offers on a home in Temecula. We're excited because we anticipated the process taking a lot longer, but here we are. The bank wants to close on July 23rd, but here's the kicker: we haven't seen the house!!! Because the house is tenant occupied, and because the tenant is very difficult, we will not be able to get into the house until July 15th, the date the tenant is moving out. Obviously, we will not close on the 23rd, instead, if we like the house and want to move forward, we'd like to close mid-August. But of course, we're still not 100% sure we want to buy in California!
Yesterday I took Emron to the beach for the first time ever. He loved it! He loved the sand and the other kids (we went with our ward), and eating the sane, he loved having a picnic lunch and he loved stealing food from other moms and their kids! He didn't love the water, and can you blame him? It was only 62 degrees. He did, however, love the idea of the water. As we walked toward the ocean he giggled with excitement but once he felt how cold it was he was not a happy camper. Regardless, if I held him and stood in the water he was completely calm as he watched the waves wash in and out, in and out.
Sand Face
When we got home from the beach, a second wind kicked in for my tired babe, and he went nuts! Walking all around, playing with toys, and my personal favorite activity of the moment, putting blocks behind the TV stand, using his whole body!
Look at Those Legs
Today we had music class then spent time with friends. Emron's resting now, and I am going to get some ironing done. We hope all is well for everyone.
XOXO,
Aspen
1 comment:
I'm so sorry you've had to endure a miscarriage. They are not fun. I miscarried before we had Owen. My best friend Jen miscarried in her 4th month. No matter when it happens it's devastating. So many questions... Then there's the hormone changes. Yuck!
I'm glad you had fun at the beach though. Emron is getting so big! Good luck with your house purchase if you decide to go through with it!
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